Fixer

"It was the story of giving my heart to you in the morning, you'll break it in the afternoon, I'll pick it up in  te evening, and will give it to you again the next morning. It became a routine."

— Jhunamae Moja (fixer, smnllyl)

Journal Date:

Another Denouement

"I abandoned our conversation with the words I am proud of and stand to say. Though, I am always brave with the words I let you hear from me because they all beautifully came from a few pieces of me that you still own. And I don't want to be like you —someone who's been fearful of his words.

I knew it, It will be an episode of our denouement.

I knew it, I will end up being looked like a fool. As always.

But it's OK, like what I have mentioned above —I knew it"

—Jhunamae Moja (another denouement, smnllyl)

Journal Date:

Eight

"For the past eight years, but who's counting anyway? I wish I met you later than those years. I wish you still have them, the reasons why I admired you.

I'll just laugh if I see you again and I no longer see them."

–Jhunamae Moja (8, smnllyl)

Journal Date: 

Hex #f9bec0

"Half of the stories in here is about us,

the other half is my favorite shade of pink you invented."

—Jhunamae Moja (HEX #f9BEC0, smnllyl)

Journal Date: 

Hometown

"Whoever imagined that we were childhood townmate, we did not know each other for years, but we played the same fun that passed from the previous gen. We were singing the same trending songs that surely you screamed at the top of your lungs too. We were filled with the same lessons that our schools taught us. It was fun living in a town where all your happiness started from. I dreamed of living in that town until my bones get rusty. And I want to share all my memories in that town with my juniors and grandchildren. And I met you, a boy that was just a heartbeat away from home. It became a place under you. Your resemblance became your soldiers. Your thoughts served as your committee. Your footprints came to be your agendas. It seems like you injected that burg with your history wherein wherever I go, it voted your name in every intersection of that town. I never dreamed of living in a big city. But now, I am living in a crowded place with busy streets and unstoppable noise around me. And I would choose to be in this city forever while you are my hometown. I will not go back."

—Jhunamae Moja(Smnllyl, Hometown)

Journal Date: April 2021 
NB. Bare. Starry Night Journal.