"I had hope that this new day would be the one that would set me free. That I would make it through without having to endure the pain of being chained from the night that I never imagine seeing you the last time. That it would forever separate us.
It took me almost a decade to wish for this day, to end everything I thought that'd be something. That I still read you even though this story bleeds in every chapter. I just re-reading all my letters for you until snail mail no longer exist. That I believe they are better left unsaid.
Whilst, you know that I still loved you secretly, softly, and patiently; and after all that, I allowed you to stop loving me, unfair to miss you, and sacred to forget you. We both know if we look back, everything just hurts.
Being effortless in making me used to not having you around. When all your absence from my feats and defeats made me realize— it's time for me to finally end our story.
Though, as being effortless, another quilt for a letter will grow tomorrow. I will write again, for sure."
—Jhunamae Moja(smnllyl,tacenda v2)
Journal Date: 07.16.23
